An Experiment

 

One of the writers in my workshop this semester was struggling with what to write.  On a deeper level, she was wrestling with a larger and much more frightening question: should I be writing at all?  One night during class, after she had run through a variety of topics and rejected them all for one reason or another, I gave the whole class a writing assignment: Walk across the Golden Gate Bridge and write about your experience. ggb

In throwing out this assignment to all the writers in the class, I was hoping to accomplish two things.  First, I wanted to lower the writing stakes for the struggling student.  If what she had to write was merely an assignment, not a topic of her choosing, a topic that, because she writes nonfiction, she felt had to be deep and important, the outcome wouldn’t matter all that much.  Not only that, but the assignment wasn’t one I had given much thought to; it was an idea that had simply occurred to me one night during class.  How big a deal could that be?

In addition, I was hoping to demonstrate to my class that the same assignment would inevitably generate an unpredictable number of very different and personal responses.  In other words, I wanted them to experience just how rich even the simplest of topics could be, to see how many variations on “walking across the Golden Gate Bridge” one writing workshop could create.

In the end, it isn’t the subject we choose to write about that counts.  It’s what we bring to the topic.  And often, because the stakes seem lower and we feel safer, we’re able to bring more of ourselves—more of our intellect, our emotional life, our spirit—to a subject that doesn’t loom too grand in our eyes.  Decide you’re going to write about “death,” for example, and you might immediately feel overwhelmed and intimated– gosh, this is such a large and profound topic; so many brilliant women and men have written about it; there’s so much to say.

However, if you settle on an infinitely smaller topic, like choosing your grandmother’s casket, you’ll approach the writing with much more confidence—and you’ll feel so much less vulnerable–and as a consequence, you’ll be less concerned with doing a good job as you write.  And being less concerned with doing a good job allows you to be more fully present as you write, to travel uncharted paths and take more risks. towerdetail

If your first time visiting Yosemite, you set your sites on Half Dome, you may well decide to stay in your cabin for several days.  You’ve set the bar so high that venturing out is a tremendous risk.  Decide however to spend the first few days exploring what is most accessible around Yosemite, you be relaxed and attentive enough to discover and make observations about the local flora and fauna, the rock formations, the river currents, the clouds.

Walking across the Golden Gate Bridge and writing about the walk is avoiding setting your sites on Half Dome and then waking up the morning of the climb so full of anxiety, you decide to leave the Park and return home.  It’s learning to think small, and to discover just how large a topic what at first glance appears inconsequential can become.



4 thoughts on “An Experiment”

  • Re the questions, what should I be writing, should I be writing at all, there was a terrific interview on KQED radio’s Forum on Monday of this week, where Michael Krasny interviewed Stephen Elliott, author of The Adderall Diaries. The first 15 mins is about Elliott’s writing of this memoir, and the point that he makes so often is that a personal essay/memoir/etc. is not about how interesting your life/activity/whatever is but it’s about your writing. I found it inspiring just when I needed a little nudge. KQED.org.Forum or something like that

    • Thanks so much for this comment, Jeannie. “Is my life interesting enough” and “Who will care besides me?” are anxieties so many of the writers I work with voice. It’s nice to find support for repeating that it’s not only the writer and her life that we readers are interested in; it’s the writing itself that counts for at least 50% of our experience. That’s why we readers read.

  • I like this. I have my high school students write in a journal and was having a hard time coming up with topics for them to write about, so one day I just said, write something about a donut. They LOVED this topic. They came up with the greatest, funniest stories about teachers and vice-principals who loved donuts. We laughed so hard. It was the weird object that broke the block for them.

    • Writing about something like a donut is a fabulous idea. No stakes here, so the gates are open to all kinds of unselfconscious writing!

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